We’re finally back home and I’m taking a break from all the holiday posts to say that 10 days without my baby Finn is far, far too long.
We got back at about 9 last night and I immediately broke my first cardinal rule of never waking a sleeping baby because I couldn’t bear another moment of not holding him. He was tired and a little grouchy but he rubbed his eyes and looked at me with sleepy recognition like he couldn’t believe I was home. And my heart just exploded all over the living room as we all assaulted him with a million kisses.
Full on baby Finn mania.
Seriously, it was tougher than I expected. By day 7 or 8, I was totally baby crazy. I was like a druggie on withdrawal and my daily fix was four thousand miles away. Every single baby I saw reminded me of Finn Finn and I was turning into the creepy lady who stared too long at other people’s babies. Then after a while, even random dolls started looking like Finn. I could feel my creepiness level maxing out every time I stepped into a toy store because I would hang around at the doll section making googly eyes at all the asian dolls.
Like I saw this doll and almost bought it because it looks *exactly* like Finn but I didn’t because the husband said it was totally creepy and also, it was $69.95.
In other news, after 10 days of not having access to my boobs, baby Finn is now completely weaned. I brought my pump along to keep up the supply just in case and last night after I got back, I tried offering him his favorite boob but he made a face and spat it right out. Then I offered him the other one and he pushed it away with his hand.
So that’s it. The end of my breastfeeding journey.
I might have cried a little (ok, a lot), but I guess it just means my baby is growing up and I have to let him. I didn’t think I’d feel this way but I’m really going to miss it.
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We went away for 3 nights and the boobs were forgotten :(
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It’s probably good that they’re so adaptable but I do miss feeding him :(
Continue offering! That’s what I did, once a fav. Always a fav. I am always travelling.
I’m a bit torn because I did want him to adjust to the bottle and he’s done it so well. I’ll take it as a sign that I can finally have my boobs back. Or maybe gun for #4 heh!
Hi Daphne welcome back! I missed reading entries about baby Finn!
I have a boy who is about Finn’s age (Z is 10mths plus) .
Can I find out whether Finn is put on formula when you went to Australia?
I will be travelling to HK for a biz trip for 1 week in end june and my boy is currently taking BM in a bottle. (Not latching directly). I am considering stopping even though I am hoping I can make it to the 1 yr mark.
Thanks for sharing on Finn and he is just so so so adorable! And of coz your other two kids are just so precious!
Thanks Yvonne! Yeap he was on formula while we were away because I didn’t have enough storage. I was pumping and throwing away milk in Australia just in case he wanted to latch again but I’m finally going to stop now..
Err,,.. Congrat? it’s a goog thing.. Mum regain some freedom
Btw, who take care bb Finn when u r away?
Hahaha thanks I guess!! My mom and my in-laws were taking turns to help out. :)
Haha… there is liberation for your boobs, so congrats, I guess! ;)
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LOL Yayy!! Haha it’s true, I am glad to have them back
:) lucky you! I lazily nursed each of my 3 kids to sleep and the older 2 somehow weaned themselves off when I got pregnant with the next kid. They were both about 17 or 18 months at that time. Iason is now 16 months and he is still nursing to sleep! :(
That’s quite an impressive record! :)
I guess it’s just a momentarily nursing strike.. U can always keep cuddling him, try offer him the boob again n again, n he will want to nurse back again.. Just need to give him time to adjust back.. Keep offering n he will eventually want it.. :)
He was quite sure that he’s done with the boobs so I’m probably just going to switch him to the bottle from here on in. I think once my boobs get past the rejection, they’ll be happy to have their freedom back again. :)
Pumping milk and throw away?? Gosh it must be heart pain to do that. I would never be able to bring myself to do it. Pumping is just so hard work and each drop to me is precious. I remember I cried even when I have to throw away frozen breastmilk in my freezer that is too old and no longer fresh.
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Definitely heart pain!! I tried to offer it to Tru and Kirsten but they made some really priceless vomit faces. Sigh…
wow, that’s amazing, my little boy is 20months old, i don’t have anymore milk since he was 17 months, but he clings to my boobs like its a life jacket in the middle of the sea, would refuse to sleep without it unless i’m not around, which would mean hiding in the cupboard at night–which i don’t do–yet.
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