I hope it’s a good one

CHRISTMAS!!!!

It’s here, it’s here, it’s finally christmas! I feel like I just got past a hump; a great big hump of a month and I can finally stop to catch my breath. It’s been the most insane month I’ve had in a long time, pulling all-nighters like I’m still 18. Except that when I get to bed at 5am, it’s when the baby wakes up for milk and my mom job starts.

But the wonderful thing about christmas is that no matter how crazy things are right before, I get to put everything down and bask in the joy of being with my family. I’ve needed this so much. Laid back movie night with my big kids, spending the first moments of this beautiful christmas day with the husband over some hot milo after all the kids are in bed, and snuggly milk time with my babycakes. It’s everything I need this christmas.

And hey, look who turned 5 months yesterday! I was chatting with the husband earlier while he was holding Theo and halfway through the conversation, my brain stopped paying attention to what he was saying because I suddenly noticed how ridiculously cute this baby was getting. Newborns are so precious but they are also kind of smooshy and weird looking but then they fatten up and one day they make the transition to becoming ridiculously cute.

As the husband’s voice trailed off because he saw that I was no longer listening, I started to squeal because sometimes you just have to squeal when words aren’t enough.

Ridiculously cute baby stage, I think I’m going to like you a lot.

The husband immediately said “Siao liao, I recognise these symptoms of momnesia. You’re like a baby collector who’s trying to add more babies to your collection” and for the first time, I felt sad at the thought of never being able to experience this adorable baby stage again. I have been steadfast in my resolve to not have another baby so far but why do babies have to make it so hard with their cute little faces? It’s so urgh, I can’t even.

Let me go think about this and I’m sure I’ll get some clarity on the situation when I’m up at 3 to feed the baby later.

Here’s Merry Christmas from my family to yours, I hope you have a good one.